Nothing Much

When a person starts typing,
His mind starts wondering,
Words enter, mouth whispers,
With no lights he surrenders,

"From an empty space, forms an empty face,

For those happy days, left without a trace..."

Gelak Busuk

Semalam bersembang dengan ustaz,
Cerita pasal dunia & di sebalik cermin,
Pusing punya pusing, masuk topik calon,
Ditanya, dah ada calon belum?

Saya jawab, belum sampai jodoh...*gelak busuk*
Ditanya pula mengapa? 

Saya jawab(dalam hati..) Ustaz jgn menyibuk *gelak busuk*

Ustaz pun dgn hebatnya seolah2 boleh baca,
Bagi nasihat ayat gempak berpuitis bagai,
"Lebih baik pilih yang sudah sayang kan kamu...
dan kalau hati kamu masih mentah untuk memberikan

yang sama, biarlah diberi selepas dah kahwin nnt.."

Aku pun... *gelak busuk*
(Aku kena tepek! aaaaah~~)

Old Friends

Old friends, old friends...
Ingat zaman di sekolah rendah,
Budak rambut durian,
Budak buku math slalu hilang,
Budak yg ada track racing tamiya,

Aku lompat masuk darjah 5,
Terpisah dgn kawan lama...
Ada budak yg pandai lukis komik,
Kau slalu dpt baca komik Dragon Ball seminggu awal,
Sbb ko langgan...aku duduk kat depan penuh ego...

Ingat zaman menengah rendah,
Aku masuk sekolah intergrasi agama,
So terpisah la dgn kawan lama...
Skolah ni byk ustaz, dgn teknik hukuman berbeza...
Ada yg cubitan micro combo dgn tarikan sideburn,
tu mmg sakit...

Lepas tu pindah masuk sekolah menengah tinggi,
Maka terpisah lagi kawan lama...
Kat sekolah ni kawan2 ku agak sempoi,
X kecoh, x famous, just nice... Rileks..
My best friend sampai skrg jumpa kat sini...
And my first gf pun jumpa di sini... Lalala..
So then habis belajar aku masuk la dunia baru...

DUNIA ARCHI... Jeng Jeng!!
I've studied for 4years, x habis belajar pun...
The best 3 years of my life was in Perak...
I've met amazing people, dari segala pelusuk dunia Malaya,
Dari KL, dari Bangsar/PJ/KL(whatever), dari Sabahbababa,
Dari SubangJ, Dari Hometown sendiri pun ada...
Some dipanggil rakan, some dipanggil kenalan,
some dipanggil junior, some seniors, some oh aku pernah nampak.
Aku sumpah rindu giler PERAK!! Fuuuk!!

*emotional jap...pause*

Penutup, skrg bagi aku dah habis zaman sekolah..OFFICIAL!
Dah masuk dunia bekerja, & masing2 dah start jalan masing2..
Yg nak kahwin, yang dah kerja masyuk, yang masih terkial2..
Yg dah start buat bodoh dgn aku, yg sambung belajar,
yg melawat sebulan skali, dan bermcm2 lagi jenis manusia..

All the best, old friends!!!

Change

Need to change the mood upside down...
This blog's layout needs some changing...
Its a big fuckin reminder of the past,
Which is not good, not good...

Sangkar kucing D.I.Y dah almost settle,
After a week bertukang, dgn hujan xnak kalah...
Budget lari, konon nak buat murah2, but u know me..
Esok insyaallah siap, & boleh start kerja mcm biasa..

p/s: ada kesan darah dlm bilik kucing 2 ekor tu,
very suspicious indeed since both cats seems to be ok.

Letih!!

Dalam ramai2 manusia yang aku kenal...
Kenapa weyh!! Kenapa!!!
Dah berbulan2 dah, seksa...
Allah... tolonglah... Letih!!
Biar la malam ni aku tidur tenang...
X perlu masukkan dia dalam kepala,

dah cukup serabut... Aku nak tido!!!!

The Wait

Aku seorang halimunan,
Mata kau x nampak aku...
Mata aku nampak kau...
Dan aku akan pandang...
Sampai kiamat...

Singapurapura

The feeling that you get,
Singing the national anthem,
Together with thousands of others,
While wearing the national jersey,
Holding your flag up high & proud,
Nothing, can beat that... Auumm!

Oh, yes? You over there... Singapurapura?
Now that's funny... Goodnight Malaysia!

Happy Birthday, One & Only

Happy birthday to you, my dear...
Today i have told you the truth,
Now everything's crystal clear...
About her, about mom...
About the things that could never become...
I never meant to hurt you, that i swear...
Its when the situation have changed,
There's another person for me to care...
She will never be you, irreplaceable being...
But now our story ends, its her songs i must sing...

I will always care for you...
Always have & always will...

Easy

Its easy enough to fall in love,
Too painful to let go...
Its very hard to find good friends,
Too easy to lose one...

And that is how this story of mine ends...
Easy...

Malam Yang Disoal

Malam ni aku kembali bertanyakan soalan,
Kenapa aku "yek"?
Malam ni aku persoalkan keputusan ibu,
Kenapa dia dan bukan dia?
Malam ni aku geram dengan aku,
Kenapa lepaskan?
Malam ni aku menyesal dengan jalan ni,
Kenapa hati tetap tak tenang...

Malam ni aku nak sedih, biarlah...

Just a Man

I can live with the fact that i am the only child,
No brothers, no sisters to share the joy of growing up...
I can deal with the fact that my father was never here,
To teach me how to be a man, to be my hero, my idol...
I can even swallow the pain of having to let go of the only person,
Who can accept me for who i am, and the person that i am not...
I can hardly stand when my mom's eyes staring at me with disappointment,
But even that pain i have managed to get used to by now...

I can go through life, having all the decisions in the past haunting,
No point of weeping, for the things that have been said and done...
I can lie to myself, just for a moment, just to hold these tears from falling,
I've made myself believe that real men don't cry...
I can take all the rejections, not as well as i wish i could,
I know God has better plans ahead, as dark & cloudy as they may be...
So you see, i can take a hit, for i've taken so many hits before,
But even so, all the blood that has been shed, im still just, a mortal man...

Pictures From the Past

Tell me my friend, how can we be so near,
Without me letting things be too clear...
Can we freeze time, and also march forward,
Pause shall we, but then life becomes awkward...

Guess i'll remain here where its warm & cold,
A place where your face remains untouched, truth be told...
All i have, to remind me of you, pictures from the past,
The memories will last, i'll bleed for them if i must...

Dust In The Wind

I close my eyes
Only for a moment and the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes with curiosity

Dust in the winds
All they are is dust in the winds...

Don't Be Stupid

Have u been in this situation?
Standing in front of a cinema's ticket counter
close to midnight trying to sell off unused tickets?
Well i have, and let me tell you something buddy,
It was so fucking embarrassing!!

Never again, never again, never again...
No more thinking Ibrahim, just be a man...
Face the facts, just do your fucking work...
Why waste money on things you'll never afford,
When you could have gone to the Arsenal game, instead...


Rugi, rugi... Kau dah jadi jejaka emo yang bodoh, 
Sekarang kau bela jambang dan duduk diam-diam,
Hidup kau yang dulu cantik, dah pun tukar jadi hodoh,
Atas gunung kau bertapa dari siang sampai malam...


Bodoh...

Takdir

Bukan salah kita bila benda tak menjadi,

Bukan kerana dia cerita menjadi tragedi,

Bukan aku yang berubah hati membuta tuli,

Bukan kerana kau, aku menanggung rugi,

Semuanya disebabkan takdir, 

aku mengejar apa yang dicari...

One Wish That Matters

If i could have just one wish to be true,
Without a doubt I'll ask for nothing but you...
These eyes are clear, its not like i don't have a clue,
Birds can be reached as the sky is always blue...

The path to heaven is clear for us to see,
For He is with us, always has and always will be...
And why would you kill for the sake of fame & glory,
Don't you know money & wealth are like apples on a tree...

All are destined to be closer to God, never can us be apart,
Everything else is there, written in blood right from the start...
So the one wish that matters is you, an amazing work of art,
So beautifully made, i will never have your priceless heart...

Candles

Candle light, shines so bright,
As the day turns into an endless night,
As i blow all the candles out,
Wishes i dare not left them without,

Sweet as it has always been,
As sweet as the memories within,
All the wishes by people around,
Only yours, i wish to be found...

If Tomorrow Never Comes

This is one of the many songs,
that will always remind me of her...
*in a non-gothic-psycho-emotional-desperado kind of way*

Thought crosses my mind,
If i never wake up in the morning,
Would she ever doubt,
The way i feel about her in my heart...

If tomorrow never comes,
Will she know how much i loved her,
Did i try in every way, to show her every day,
That she's my only one,
And if my time on earth were through,
And she must face this world without me,
Is the love i gave her in the past,
Gonna be enough to last,
If tomorrow never comes...

'Cause i've lost loved ones in my life,
Who never knew how much i loved them,
Now i live with the regret,
That my true feelings for them never were revealed,
So i made a promise to myself,
To say each day how much she means to me,
And avoid that circumstance,
Where there's no second chance to tell her how i feel...

So tell that someone that you love,
Just what you're thinking of,
If tomorrow never comes...

p/s: Kevin Skinner's version is the best...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFLQoZ3zk_Q

Not Bad at All

Went to see a movie today,
Transformers 3... The best out of 3!
Well, i heard the reviews weren't that great,
but for me it was excellent...
Even the new actress did a good job...
"Rosie Huntington-Whiteley"...
And it was a new experience...
First time to watch a movie by myself...

Not bad at all...

Tomorrow same movie, and im gonna
bring Mad this time, he deserves it... Has been studying hard!
Proud of you man... Thumbs up!

Single

Haven't had that title for almost 7 years...
7 years i've always had someone next to me...
Those years i've been in relationships...
And now im officially, a single man...
No turning back this time, buddy...
I will learn the ways of the single-ness...
It is going to be a bit empty, i know...
But at least now i don't have to feel guilty,
checking out girls & stuff... Yeay..............

Behave my young Padawan!
"Aaaah~ Yes Master.... "

Done

Maybe it was all a distraction...
To avoid feeling down about something else...
Maybe i just wanted to be ok with everything...
I refused to deal with the problems i had...

Yeah, i feel you...
Yeah, i wish things could've worked out between us...
Yeah, i wish the answer was yes...
Yeah, i know im willing to give up everything for you...

But,
Im done, being all sad & shit...
Im done, feeling as lifeless as my life can be...
Im done, feeling sorry for myself...
Im done, using you as an excuse to be miserable...

Im done... I have to wake up... Bukak mata, Ibrahim...

Ice Cream Fish

What to do... what to do....
I need a vacation, somewhere far away...
Everything is too near, too familiar...
Maybe a few months in Saudi or something,
that might do the trick...
I work, i go out and hang around,
more work, and if there aren't any, i'll find one..
Sleep doesnt really help now because
then dreams will come and the torture continues...

Fuck, fuck!! I mean... fish!!! If i can picture this
situation into a scenario, it would be something like,
it's like a kid standing in front of me,
holding an ice cream under the hot sun,
And me with an empty pocket, this kid
keeps on waving his ice cream to my face!

Ice cream.... Fish!!

Purpose

I believe in the existence of one God,

His presence can be felt with every breath that i take...

I have great faith, what has been planned ahead,

Even though i constantly complain about it...

The fact that i was born in a family with no father,

He has become the place i seek peace & comfort...

I have no regrets haunting me from the past,

or should i have doubts about the future,

My purpose here, the answer to that is still a mystery...

All that matters is the here and now, the present...

And now, all i know is that i am very much into you...

I can't see the purpose of having me feeling this way,

Maybe the pain is the price i've to pay for my sins...

Or maybe its just another way of telling that im still alive...

As i said before, i'll just keep on believing in His plans,

So as in for now, my only purpose is just to believe...

Glad

This weekend passed by...
Haven't had much sleep, had to work extra.
Or else my mind would start wondering stuff,
and we wouldn't want that to happen...
Considering that not as much posting were done
in this blog during these couple of days, i guess
that all the distractions worked a little...
Its currently 4am, i've done quite a few improvements
to the Banawi Studio's blog. Very very tiring indeed.
Thought i would reward myself with some hot coffee,
rest a little bit before i have to send my lil brother to
school at 7pm.

Now i would like to spend some time thinking about you,
just a lil bit, as somehow just by doing that makes me smile...
Im really glad that you've reached home safely...
And yes, i know that im being glad for no reason at all...
But hey, as Bob Marley once said...
Who are you to judge the life i live?

Aura

I went super productive like crazy today,

somehow managed to channel that tingling

feeling caused by the absence of a familiar aura...

Printed 40 t-shirts, sealed the deal with a client,

paid the house rent, the security fee, etc...

A part of me felt like distracting myself,

maybe to avoid any unnecessary feelings to occur... 

But by the end of the day, i guess i failed entirely...

Im aware of the situation, yet i allow myself to drown..

I've achieved so many things, and still life manage to put you

right in front of me, in a way i could never reach you...

And today i can literally feel your aura,

went a lil bit further... It's stupid, i know... So fuck it.. 

Sunshine

You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine,

You make me happy,

When skies are grey...

You'll never know, dear,

How much i adore you...

Now all i can do is wait,

Until someone takes my sunshine away...

Your wonderful existence in this world,

makes mine much more meaningful... 

Perfect

Wooooooooo!!!!!!
The Battle of the Band was great!!
Didn't make it to the finals, but hey...
Playing a Metallica Medley is not something
that you can expect to win nowadays.. Damn kids...
Still, my first experience, playing on a big stage,
with lighting & some stage fog & those crowds!!
And you get to play songs from your favorite band,
with the greatest band mates in the world..
And when the crowd starts to sing along,
it was at that moment, all the stage fright, gone!!
You just like, be IN the moment, man!!

And by the end of it, people start coming at us,
and they were like older & complete strangers & stuff...
when they say things like how they enjoyed our performance,
how well we played & shit, that was IT for me! (wooo!!)
Appreciate the comments, thank you mat rock kapaks!!
Nik, thank you for coming & the lepak session afterwards...
Thanks to the organizers for the wonderful hospitality...
The girl managing the backstage was very friendly indeed... haha..
Overall, best night ever! Mad, wish you were there buddy!

And the best part, she was there.... thank you!
You were the last ingredient in making this unforgettable night, Perfect...

Hacked

Big day today!! Battle of the Band baby!!

My very first battle, it will be held somewhere inside UiTM...
Do come, we'll be doing a medley, Tribute to Metallica...
Wish us luck, prosperity &.........hmmmh~ Prosperity Burger~


Oh yeah,


I've been hacked... My dreamworld that is...
Somebody entered my Matrix, how dare you!
She looked like one of The Powerpuff Girls or something...
Busy as she always has been, fighting crimes & stuff...
Sugar, spice & everything nice indeed...


"As if being sweet & adorable is the only way you know how..."
-twitted but deleted for personal reasons~

Pavlova Delight

Just got back from the greatest jamming session ever!!
It was for 2 hours, with the world's most awesome players...
Had to bail early though, promised Nik that we would
celebrate her birthday tonight... Happy birthday Nik,
you've been a great friend... Up top!

Anyway, i've finally tasted the legendary pavlova... God~
Speechless... Restless...

One could have the worst day of his life,
only a bite will surely turn the world upside down...
Something so smooth, it melts in your mouth...
Heavenly i might say, sweet & elegant...
Kinda wish i've had seconds,
but wouldn't want to spoil the first time experience...

Cheese cakes, egg tarts, make way for the real deal...

Daily Dose

Things went a little bit off today,
As few errands went down hill...
Almost had my "burst of anger" moment...
Eyes turning green..! teeth grinding!!!
My body grows a lot of hair!!!!
(wait, nope.. That part's normal..)

I took a glance on something that reminds me of you,
And there i was, smiling like an idiot...

I remembered a song, on one of Creed's albums...
It's called "Stand Here With Me"
Not stand as in to sing the National Anthem, ok?
Don't be a smart ass...

Here's some part of the lyrics..

In this life that I live...I hope I can give love unselfishly...I've learned the world is bigger than me...You're my daily dose of reality... 

Coz you stand here with me...

Morning Wishes

Good morning to you, all the best in...
(whatever it is that you're doing in that little kingdom of yours)
Have lots of work to do today,
A lot of catching up, a lot of things waiting to be taken care of...

Tonight, going to Wangsa Maju, attending a band practice,
Tomorrow we may be entering some Battle of the Band...(yeay!)
Its my first time, so i am super super nervous!! 
Sure would be nice to hear some good luck wishes & stuff though...
But hey, i understand... i'd still be rocking out for sure!!!

Ok then! Work! work!!

Awesomeness

Today i felt better... today im back on my feet!
Bemz iz back baby!!!
After getting myself into some self-created drama, which..
if u must know, im the character named "yeekk"...
try google me up... That was fun...
im still stubbornly in love with a wall (yeaayy...)
but promised myself not to put friendships at risk,
and that is a promise i will keep.. Im a professional..
Yeaahh baby~

So anyway, i woke up at 7am, had to really...
since im da man in this house!
Gotta send kids to school...
Went back home, cleaned the room a lil bit,
Had coffee for breakfast, and updated my blog!
(Banawi Studio is planning to provide a blog-customization service)
Yup, so contact us on Facebook if interested...
This blog is our first try,
will soon have an official Banawi Studio blog
so do check it out...

Peace motherfuckers!!

Light

You've now become a symbol, a statue,
Like an old candle, has finally been lit, holds my virtue,
The dark room within, now visible to the naked eye,
Light, you've given strength, no more the dessert so dry,

Clue

Without a clue, about what i should do,

To make you smile, when you're feeling blue...

Could it be words, that might interests you,

Or maybe in silence, words can only pass through...

Dream

As time travels through the space of mine,

The same memory walks into my empty mind...

The gift from God, for He is mighty kind,

For i can still have a dream,
It doesn't matter anymore if im blind...

Refresh

I crawled, then i walked again,

Now i think i'll run a bit, so let it be rain...

I apologize, for causing such a scene,

I won't bow however,for it ain't a sin...

This being will taste whatever he wants to,

Don't tell otherwise, for this, feels so true...

Refresh, refresh, my life will be renewed,

If that can't be done then im fuckin screwed...

"In the Mood of M.Nasir Mode..."

The Night

Let it be crystal clear,

Let it cleanses your fear...

Let it be peace for you,

Let it be a path to walk through...

Let it be remain here,

Let it be kept so near...

Let it be white and blue,

Let it remain to be untrue...  

Bitter

Went to Bota,
Peanut butter,
A bit bitter,
I've been better...

Show & Tell

Would you be interested in hearing a funny story,

I can only tell, as i've found you very much worthy...

It's about a boy, and the things that makes him happy,

It's also about a girl, the things that she finds to be scary...

Never had a beginning, this things just happened actually,

For it is a paranormal phenomena, but i don't find it at all creepy...

So for today's Show & Tell, i'll tell a story about a person so lovely,

Even when she breaks a heart, it is as sweet as life can be...

6:45am

Its raining now, i'm getting wet,
I want to be in my warm bed...
Oh, what a terrible weather what a terrible day,
My feet are cold and the sky is grey...

What a terrible terrible day...

*dedicated to Mrs Kumaran*
one of the best English teacher ever!

Big Boy

*It aint over till the Big Boy starts rappin...*

-imagine a beat that suits your imagination.... Yo, yo~

I think its normal, for a person to be sad,

When bad things happen, when he's upset...

It is natural for a person to weep, to cry,

For the pain is there as time passes by...

Understand this, i am upset, i am depressed,

But i'll learn to grow from this motherfuckin test...

You who can't read what lies within,

Don't you dare judge what cannot be seen...

I have nothing to gain, nothing to lose,

It is my path, its not for you to choose...

I still have hopes, no it wasn't given by you,

I'll learn to live with it, knowing that it will never come true...

Love's a bitch, especially when it comes to this,

But even so, this memory will be my everlasting bliss...

You've given the answer, i wasn't expecting the other,

I've done my part, and that is all i have to offer...

(Chorus)

Im a Big Boy, and this is just a phase... I'll survive~ 

I will survive~~  yeah yeah~~

Blindfold

God, the one, the truth...
Its been a while, since we last spoke...
Today again i am helpless...
Again i am bound to this fate...
Has it come to a point...
That i don't need the ability to see...
The gift of sight, but in a cruel way...

Next time i'll remember to use a blindfold...
Hope that'll help...

June in Hell

June in Hell... The Month of Torture...
This month bonds between family members were put to the test..
This month a 6 years relationship was ended...
This month got rejected in many things...
This month battled nicotine addiction for almost 2 weeks...
This month, an old memory paid me a visit, and same thing happened... rejected...

I've never had anything against a month before,
so June 2011, you're my lucky number one...

Master of Po-pets

By the end of the day, grieving along the way,

Po's my source of self-depression,
Veins that pump with tears, sucking life so clear,

Po was my only friend, my companion... 

Feel me you will see,

Love, is not what you need,

Figuring a way to, how to let you go...

Start crying harder!

I am the master!

My life grows weaker!

I am Po's master! Master! 

If I Go Crazy

If i go crazy,
Would you still call me Superman?
If I said i wouldn't mind,
would you be there holding my hand?
I'll keep you by my side,
Even if i see you walk towards another man...
There is no cage to find,
To squeeze this inside as hard as i can...
If only i knew, it would be this kind,
I would've chosen the other plan...

"3 Doors Down... Im Down... So shawty got low low low..."

I Need A Boxer

I'm about to lose my mind,

This has been going on for so long, now i guess it's time, 

I need a boxer, get me my boxer,

I need a boxer, boxer for i won't be leaving the house for a while.

*Some random neighbor starts rappin.. yo! yo!*