If Tomorrow Never Comes

This is one of the many songs,
that will always remind me of her...
*in a non-gothic-psycho-emotional-desperado kind of way*

Thought crosses my mind,
If i never wake up in the morning,
Would she ever doubt,
The way i feel about her in my heart...

If tomorrow never comes,
Will she know how much i loved her,
Did i try in every way, to show her every day,
That she's my only one,
And if my time on earth were through,
And she must face this world without me,
Is the love i gave her in the past,
Gonna be enough to last,
If tomorrow never comes...

'Cause i've lost loved ones in my life,
Who never knew how much i loved them,
Now i live with the regret,
That my true feelings for them never were revealed,
So i made a promise to myself,
To say each day how much she means to me,
And avoid that circumstance,
Where there's no second chance to tell her how i feel...

So tell that someone that you love,
Just what you're thinking of,
If tomorrow never comes...

p/s: Kevin Skinner's version is the best...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KFLQoZ3zk_Q

Not Bad at All

Went to see a movie today,
Transformers 3... The best out of 3!
Well, i heard the reviews weren't that great,
but for me it was excellent...
Even the new actress did a good job...
"Rosie Huntington-Whiteley"...
And it was a new experience...
First time to watch a movie by myself...

Not bad at all...

Tomorrow same movie, and im gonna
bring Mad this time, he deserves it... Has been studying hard!
Proud of you man... Thumbs up!

Single

Haven't had that title for almost 7 years...
7 years i've always had someone next to me...
Those years i've been in relationships...
And now im officially, a single man...
No turning back this time, buddy...
I will learn the ways of the single-ness...
It is going to be a bit empty, i know...
But at least now i don't have to feel guilty,
checking out girls & stuff... Yeay..............

Behave my young Padawan!
"Aaaah~ Yes Master.... "

Done

Maybe it was all a distraction...
To avoid feeling down about something else...
Maybe i just wanted to be ok with everything...
I refused to deal with the problems i had...

Yeah, i feel you...
Yeah, i wish things could've worked out between us...
Yeah, i wish the answer was yes...
Yeah, i know im willing to give up everything for you...

But,
Im done, being all sad & shit...
Im done, feeling as lifeless as my life can be...
Im done, feeling sorry for myself...
Im done, using you as an excuse to be miserable...

Im done... I have to wake up... Bukak mata, Ibrahim...

Ice Cream Fish

What to do... what to do....
I need a vacation, somewhere far away...
Everything is too near, too familiar...
Maybe a few months in Saudi or something,
that might do the trick...
I work, i go out and hang around,
more work, and if there aren't any, i'll find one..
Sleep doesnt really help now because
then dreams will come and the torture continues...

Fuck, fuck!! I mean... fish!!! If i can picture this
situation into a scenario, it would be something like,
it's like a kid standing in front of me,
holding an ice cream under the hot sun,
And me with an empty pocket, this kid
keeps on waving his ice cream to my face!

Ice cream.... Fish!!

Purpose

I believe in the existence of one God,

His presence can be felt with every breath that i take...

I have great faith, what has been planned ahead,

Even though i constantly complain about it...

The fact that i was born in a family with no father,

He has become the place i seek peace & comfort...

I have no regrets haunting me from the past,

or should i have doubts about the future,

My purpose here, the answer to that is still a mystery...

All that matters is the here and now, the present...

And now, all i know is that i am very much into you...

I can't see the purpose of having me feeling this way,

Maybe the pain is the price i've to pay for my sins...

Or maybe its just another way of telling that im still alive...

As i said before, i'll just keep on believing in His plans,

So as in for now, my only purpose is just to believe...

Glad

This weekend passed by...
Haven't had much sleep, had to work extra.
Or else my mind would start wondering stuff,
and we wouldn't want that to happen...
Considering that not as much posting were done
in this blog during these couple of days, i guess
that all the distractions worked a little...
Its currently 4am, i've done quite a few improvements
to the Banawi Studio's blog. Very very tiring indeed.
Thought i would reward myself with some hot coffee,
rest a little bit before i have to send my lil brother to
school at 7pm.

Now i would like to spend some time thinking about you,
just a lil bit, as somehow just by doing that makes me smile...
Im really glad that you've reached home safely...
And yes, i know that im being glad for no reason at all...
But hey, as Bob Marley once said...
Who are you to judge the life i live?

Aura

I went super productive like crazy today,

somehow managed to channel that tingling

feeling caused by the absence of a familiar aura...

Printed 40 t-shirts, sealed the deal with a client,

paid the house rent, the security fee, etc...

A part of me felt like distracting myself,

maybe to avoid any unnecessary feelings to occur... 

But by the end of the day, i guess i failed entirely...

Im aware of the situation, yet i allow myself to drown..

I've achieved so many things, and still life manage to put you

right in front of me, in a way i could never reach you...

And today i can literally feel your aura,

went a lil bit further... It's stupid, i know... So fuck it..